Jul 28, 2022Remembering the Opinions and the JoyI’m missing my mom today — that kind of missing that makes your heart just ache. I think about her every single day but today is her Birthday so she’s especially top of mind. I’ve written about my mom a lot. We had a very honest, some might say too…Moms3 min readMoms3 min read
Apr 25, 2022One Year — Missing my DadI remember the day I took this picture so well. Dad was crabby and I suggested a walk — something my mom always said would help — and of course it always did. Dad and I walked up and down the block we’d lived on for decades. He stopped every…Dad2 min readDad2 min read
Feb 28, 2022Missing my Mom. Missing my Dad.It’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that half my family is gone. I’m missing my parents with an ache that I can’t quite describe. I know how lucky I was to have a stable family and loving parents. And I know most of us will experience this…Parents2 min readParents2 min read
Dec 30, 2021So many changes — turning stuck into movementI like change. I like movement. I love a big move, the bigger the better; the further the better. 2021 was all about change and movement and now I’m trying to figure out how to make 2022 about enjoying that change. My dad died in 2021 — he was 95…Change2 min readChange2 min read
May 31, 2021Memorial Day - Missing My DadThinking about my dad today on this first Memorial Day without him. My dad was one of those WWII heroes though he didn’t see it that way. He was just following orders, just doing his job. He hated war, never wanted to glamorize it and always rebuffed those who did…Memorial Day1 min readMemorial Day1 min read
Apr 1, 2021The WaitingWe’ve been waiting all day for test results — we’re still waiting We were hoping for news today, preferably good news, from dad’s doctors. Instead, we waited, all day, but no news came. Right now, the waiting is the hardest part. …Dads2 min readDads2 min read
Mar 31, 2021Think Good Thoughts for My DadI spent the afternoon at the hospital with my dad. He had no recollection of his complete confusion last night and I didn’t bring it up. He actually said he had, “a pretty good night.” I don’t think I slept at all. We’re not sure what’s coming his way. The…Dads2 min readDads2 min read
Mar 30, 2021When Delusional Morphs into DeliriumI miss dad’s gentler delusions Dad doesn’t know where he is, why he’s there, or why we’ve left him. Or the big one, why we’ve abandoned him. Of course, we haven’t done any of these things, but he doesn’t see that. …Dads2 min readDads2 min read
Mar 29, 2021Words MatterHow casually hearing, “Your dad has heart failure” is like a punch to the gut The nurse said it so casually, like she was saying, “Please pass the salt.” “Your dad has heart failure.” Her high voice had a sing-song ring but it was like a punch to the gut…Dads2 min readDads2 min read
Mar 28, 2021A Bumpy Start — A Better DayGrateful that a night in the ICU gave dad his breath back Aging is so complicated. Mix-in family dynamics, anxiety, and a pandemic raging and it makes it even more challenging. We joke that dad has nine lives. He’s the boy who cried wolf again and again and again. …Dads1 min readDads1 min read
